Not for the Faint at Heart

When we got to Utah I was complaining that my back hurt. I felt bad complaining because the older I get, I feel new and different pains and I am afraid of sounding like a whimp. So the very day that Kyle flew out, I was in a ton of pain only in my back though. I thought I was going to pass out and I felt sick to my stomach and I was in a cold sweat. I was so embarrassed to be hurting that bad and I wasn't used to all the sweet love and attention. I tried to put on a brave front and be okay. I had to do it for my daughter. She pays so much attention to what is said and when she heard that I was wanting to throw up, she gets a little upset. Anyway, I went a whole week with severe back pain. Needless to say, yesterday was terrible and these are my pretty little kidney stones I passed. GROSS! I put them next to a tic tac so that you can compare the size. I was in so much pain yesterday and I did it all by myself. Kyla is the best little girl and she helped as much as a 5 year old could. Kyle was a work, and he was trying so hard to get away. I know he felt bad that he could not be here for me, I know he LOVES me anyway!!! I love him and so he is totally forgiven. I don't think he knows how stong his wife is though. My back still totally hurts, and I probably should go to the doctor, but I am afraid too. I don't think this is normal back pain and I am kinda nervous. I just want it to go away. I'll tell ya, if it is not one thing, it's another. Well I will get off my soap box.